I've just discovered your blog through Garters and Stockings. I've been going back through your posts, having a read and a look at photos and such (I find that we seem to have a fairly similar taste in clothes, I was a child of goth too) but this article...has just amazed me. I knew that fat admirers were out there but...I don't know. This really struck home.
I've been dating my boyfriend for 8 months, and he has helped me a lot as far as accepting my own body goes, but...I always felt a little bit odd about us. He has CF and as a result hovers around about the 50kg (110lb) mark. I myself am closer to 120kgs (265lb).
The longer that we were together, the more self conscious I felt. Especially because in the last 2 or so months (I suppose because he felt comfortable enough to do it) he's been doing things like grabbing my tummy fat and jiggling it around, and putting his hands on my bottom and wiggling it, and nibbling at my arm fat, and to be honest, I thought he was teasing me. I hated it. Every time I asked him why he did it, he'd just shrug and tell me that it was fun, or that he liked it. And it felt...totally beyond possible that he might actually like it. I hated myself so much that I didn't see how anyone could like me.
I don't know what I'm trying to say really. This article just made me want to cry with happiness, because suddenly I get that it's ok for my boyfriend to enjoy my body the way he does.
I've just discovered your blog through Garters and Stockings. I've been going back through your posts, having a read and a look at photos and such (I find that we seem to have a fairly similar taste in clothes, I was a child of goth too) but this article...has just amazed me. I knew that fat admirers were out there but...I don't know. This really struck home.
ReplyDeleteI've been dating my boyfriend for 8 months, and he has helped me a lot as far as accepting my own body goes, but...I always felt a little bit odd about us. He has CF and as a result hovers around about the 50kg (110lb) mark. I myself am closer to 120kgs (265lb).
The longer that we were together, the more self conscious I felt. Especially because in the last 2 or so months (I suppose because he felt comfortable enough to do it) he's been doing things like grabbing my tummy fat and jiggling it around, and putting his hands on my bottom and wiggling it, and nibbling at my arm fat, and to be honest, I thought he was teasing me. I hated it. Every time I asked him why he did it, he'd just shrug and tell me that it was fun, or that he liked it. And it felt...totally beyond possible that he might actually like it. I hated myself so much that I didn't see how anyone could like me.
I don't know what I'm trying to say really. This article just made me want to cry with happiness, because suddenly I get that it's ok for my boyfriend to enjoy my body the way he does.
holy crap that was you?!?! This was one of the BEST issues from the voice!
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